This morning found me driving at 90 mph with the adrenaline pumping. I was on the cusp of coming down from an amazing, non-drug induced, high. I just knew that I NEEDED to get into my office because when that high came down, It would be quite possible that I'd either crash into another car, or that I'd have to pull my shit over and just sleep.
From the window of my Ivory Tower the evening before, I'd seen the sun set. I don't know if you all truly recognize the magnificence of such an act. Whether you believe in a divine power or not, there's nothing like watching the sun go down and the firmament become varying hues of pinks to make you just marvel at creation.
From another window, I watched the moon and the stars. And then finally, I hit the sack. BUT, I never went to sleep. I was up all night long engaging in probably the most fulfilling conversation that I've had in years.
All I will say is this, the best feeling in the world for a person who has never allowed his or herself to trust, is to find that being that makes you feel like putting you out there would be worth it. And so, I chatted and exhaled. I feel like this must be the best week of my life. And that is no understatement. From being out in Chicago, to spending time with my homie that finally now knows me, to just having a conversation so good that sleep is not a thought, I'm riding high.
I got into my office today and CRASHED. And I considered leaving and going back home, but I realized that I'd probably fall alseep on the road. So I stayed here. And I slept in the office and then again, in my car.
There's nothing like being able to express your thoughts to someone who listens attentively, shares continually, and speaks sensually. And after all these years of knowing each other, we introduced ourselves to each for the very first time.
And the darkness of the night quickly lightened. And a pink ball of magnificence emerged from between the clouds. And just like that, another day had begun. And I never ended the previous one that I'd started.
So, despite having a sleepless night, I'm bounding with energy at 4:04pm. Hope you too had an amazing day.
*I'm going home to complete the Crash Post*
Perhaps you can bottle some of that natural high and send it to the Chi ASAP? :)
Khandi- You need some of that natural high? You know you can get it from running too? LOL...
Posted by: Khandi | Thursday, July 07, 2005 at 05:51 PM
Dammit, Cee. You are sooo right. There is nothing like finding that person who makes you want to share, makes you want to be a better person. Someone who you can trust and that will trust you with everything. Yeah, I know that feeling. It's great.
Thanks for sharing your sleepless, fulfilling night with us. :)
Will- I have yet to meet someone that makes me want to be a better person. LOL...
Posted by: will | Thursday, July 07, 2005 at 05:53 PM
I echo Will, there is nothing like that feeling.
Send me some of those positive thoughts!
Always sending positive thoughts sistah. Even when I'm down.
Posted by: sun | Thursday, July 07, 2005 at 08:21 PM
Had those nights. Have always had those nights. Aren't they great. And when the morning comes, u don't want it to end. But at the same time, you don't want to over-dose...Because you WANT to look forward to the next time and not beat this time into the ground.
Basically
Posted by: Kajuana | Thursday, July 07, 2005 at 08:56 PM
well damn cee...
Hey Bruh- I'm sorry I didn't email you back. The email was in my junk mail box and all of a sudden, I was bombarded with mail that pushed it into the trash can. So, I'll email you now that I have an addy. All is well. Hope that is the case for you as well.
Posted by: sincere | Friday, July 08, 2005 at 05:24 AM
lol. getting me to say anything to anyone after 8:30 p.m. is a chore and a half! glad to hear things have been going so well, though. and i agree on the sunsets 100%.
Hey A- In these last few weeks, I've had so much on my mind that I've been up well past 11pm. Things can always be better, but I am quite content with how they are right now. And yes, sunsets are all the rave.
Posted by: littletail | Friday, July 08, 2005 at 09:17 AM
I love sunsets. I promised myself I'd make time for more sunrises. To me, there's nothing like watching nature do its thing. It places everything in its proper prospective for me, and I realize that nothing is more beautiful than that given us by the earth.
I'm so happy you've found your conversation piece. Like someone else said, don't overdose. Yeah, right! LOL Here's hoping it only gets sweeter for you.
Posted by: Yolanda | Friday, July 08, 2005 at 06:35 PM